That call broke me in ways I will never be able to fix, but I’m trying for you. Getting that call and realizing that was the moment where everything changed. It’s easier for me to believe it was a mistake than it is for me to deal with the reality of actually losing you. Most days, I believe that this was a mistake. I shouldn’t be left with feeling as though I’m missing a part of me every single day. I hate missing you because I shouldn’t have to. There will be no more late-night skype calls, no more summer nights sitting in the bed of your truck. I’m reminded that you won’t be there for me to call anymore. I can see your smile I can hear your voice so clearly. But for whatever reason, today is not most days. Most days, I walk around with my chin held high and I can breathe. Most days, I can act like everything is fine, as if you are just one call away still. Most days, I can hold back the tears and carry on with my day. Some nights the anger burns so hot and the tears won’t stop coming. Some nights I know you are in a better place and I’m able to sleep. It seems like just as quickly as you came into my life, you’ve left. Most days I deal with your death admirably. Any person or place that gets to have you is the absolute luckiest in the world. Heaven gets the one person that I never thought I’d have to learn to live without, and it is so lucky for that. The only person that managed to talk me down when my anxiety consumed me. The person I called about a good test score or went to get coffee with so we could talk for hours.
Heaven gets to have the person who was supposed to be there for me no matter what.
#You should be here how to#
I was the absolute luckiest person in the world to have you in my life, but I am the most unlucky to have to figure out how to move forward without my favorite person. I was not ready to have to continue without you. I was not prepared to say goodbye to someone who meant so much to me. There are so many things that you are going to miss.
There was so much more you were supposed to be here for. I didn’t think the day would come as soon as it did. Watch the emotional moment that Swindell will likely never forget, below.I never really thought the day would come that I would have to live without you. Swindell asked the crowd to help him sing “You Should Be Here” for his mom…and it will give you chills and likely bring a tear to your eye. He asked the crowd to put their phone lights up in the air and when they did, he said, “That looks like heaven.” “ She would want me on stage in front of a crowd like this. These people have had my back since day one,” Swindell said to the crowd. “ There’s no way I’m missing being up here in front of a crowd like this. Just five days after his mom passed away, and three days after the funeral (which took place Wednesday September 15), Swindell was back on the road, telling the crowd that’s what his mom would have wanted. Gonna miss her so much.” Cole Swindell / Instagram “ Took this on the flight home to Georgia this afternoon,” he wrote on the photo. He was flying home to Georgia from being on tour with Thomas Rhett, and snapped a photo of the sky while on the airplane. Swindell posted the news of his mom’s passing to his Instagram story on the 13th. For so many years, this song has been associated with his father’s passing, but when his mom, Betty Carol Rainey, died on Monday, September 13, it took on a new meaning.
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